Sweet Quietness!

By far, my favorite time of the day has been around 5am. Yes, that's right, 5am! Why?? My little one has finally gone to sleep after his early morning feeding, and my dear husband is asleep. Which means, the world is MINE! There is something so peaceful when the whole world around me (ok, maybe just my apartment) is still asleep! It's me, the birds, and that rising sun!

And for me, this is pretty much a miracle. I am NOT a morning person. But through this new motherhood, I realize that there are small moments of quietness and peace. And usually, it happens when our babe is asleep. Ha! I think I new this before I got pregnant, but now I know it for real!!

I have the freedom to get a drink of water, go to the bathroom, check my email, lurk on facebook and babycenter, and there is no one asking me to pack their lunch :-) or feed them or play with them! I guess I can chalk it up to the selfishness of having a moment to myself. Ahhh. It's so glorious!!

So, when is your "my" moment during the day and what is your favorite part about it??

Me vs. Baby

So, do anyone of you feel like some days are just a battle of wills?? Like, when my LO wakes up and his nap should not yet be over!! Somedays, I win. Somedays (a lot), I lose. We had a pretty horrible weekend with naps. I don't know if it was because daddy was home and my LO wanted to spend time with him?? Either way, he decided if he slept for 45 minutes that was good enough!

Fast forward to today, he decides he's going to keep doing this 45 minute stuff. Well, I've had it! He needs his nap or he gets GRUMPY. So, I kept reinserting the pacifier. Yes, I did it about 20 times. But, in the end, I WON! He went back to sleep!!! So now it's time for him to get up, and he's still sleeping. I'm not waking him up this time because who knows what will happen the next nap! Ha!

Do you ever feel like you have a battle to win with your little one?? What is the battle, and do you win???

Pure Exhaustion

So last night at the grocery store, we ran into a gentleman who had a 5 week old baby. It catapulted me back to those days!! Do you remember them?? I do! No sleep, no memory and just trying to survive each moment! I kept telling him, "It gets better!" Although, if I remember right, I didn't believe anyone when else when they said it either!

How is it that when I was getting sleep in increments of two hours, I felt just as rested as now when I get sleep in 4-6 hour increments?? And isn't it amazing how you still love that little baby who is so changing your sleep patterns?? I know for a fact that if my husband did that, he would easily be on the futon every single night and I would give him death stares all day!

I think I've decided that all new parents should have live-in help for the first two months. What would it entail?? Thanks for asking!

1. Cooked meals. Breakfast, lunch and dinner! No worrying about what to make while taking care of an infant. Meals just appear!
   
2. Cleaning. My most hated chore! Never would that floor have fuzzies or other disgusting things strewn on it. It would be spic and span!
   
3. Laundry. Although I don't hate this, how nice would it be for somebody else to take care of it??
4. Taking baby when its fussy. This would be by far my favorite! I hate when my little one cries and cries and there's nothing wrong. This person would rock them to sleep, reinsert pacifiers at 2am, etc.
   

Wouldn't that be awesome!??!?! I have to say, I had my mom and mom-in-law for about a week and half after I got home from the hospital, and it was glorious! I hated when they left... I'm pretty sure I bawled!

Do you have anything else to add to the list?? Does the sleeping keep getting better or worse??

The Hero?

Have any of you noticed that your baby may look at you and expect that you know exactly what is wrong and how to fix it?? Today is the probably third time he's done this since he was born almost 12 weeks ago. I've had times where daddy is right there, and he seems to look past daddy, focus in on me, and make his cry. Almost like he's saying, "Mom!! I need this and you know what it is!!"

How inadequate I feel when I cannot seem to understand what he needs! Yes, sometimes I get it right, but it's usually by chance. Why is it that I feel so horrible when I cannot seem to solve the problem? By not solving his problem, have I ceased to be his hero?? Will he still look at me to solve his problems and hurts when he's 2, 5, 10?

I guess this makes me relate our relationship with Christ. Isn't it amazing how being a parent constantly makes you think of your relationship with Christ? Anyway, I have so many hurts and needs, and I try to do the same thing my son does. I reach out for Christ to hear my problems and solve them. Even though he understands exactly how we feel, sometimes his answer is no or wait. And how we hate those times!!

Have you ever felt like you are your child's hero? What did you do when you couldn't meet his/her needs??

Day Two...

So, after having my dear little boy in June, it's been decided that I will be a Stay-At-Home Mom (SAHM) for now! I am so very excited to begin this journey, and get to see each milestone of my sweet babe. Truthfully, part of me is sad to lose that "adult" interaction. Did I really enjoy my working job? Sometimes. Is being a mom so much better? Definitely yes!

I guess part of me feels like the walls are going to close in on me and swallow me whole. That, for some reason, what I've enjoyed these past 11 weeks may change and all of the sudden I won't like it anymore. Why do I have all of these doubts when I know this is what God intends right now? If He has given it to me, He will see me through. So, where is that faith of mine??

My little boy is 11 weeks as of Sunday. He is growing and moving and changing every single day! We're finally starting to sleep a bit more as he sleeps anywhere from 6-8 hours right now. It keeps getting longer, so it's definitely encouraging!

So, please join me on this new journey I'm undertaking!

And, what was your first feeling when you knew you'd be a SAHM??